Yes, everything ended with Weikiat. I'm no longer his Girlfriend anymore. Wondering if I should regret not getting married earlier. No no, I ought to be glad that we didn't get married earlier for if things were to come to this state after we got married, it will be worse. Currently staying at Granny's house leading a simple and contented life.
Guess it's time for me to come clean with everything too. There're people whom know, there're people whom doesn't too. Alright, I'm pregnant with a third child. Am going for the checkup tomorrow and I believe I will be able to know the actual gender of the baby. Went to 2different doctor previously and they both said it looks like a girl but they ain't sure. Hopefully, its really a baby girl. So for now, I'm only looking after Benfred and Zenfred while waiting for my baby to be out in around June. The rest of the details can only be know when I visit the doctor tomorrow.
Benfred returned back to school already. Just wanna spend all my time into looking after them, giving them a normal life. Recently, they've been good boys. Sleeping early in the night, waking up early in the morning. I know this is how I want them to be, and I know this is what they can't be when its at Weikiat's home.
Yep, I admit that I might not be able to let go. Its hard for me to let go especially when its after 5years with 3kids. I knew how much I need him to be in my life but still no matter what, I've gotta endure the parting. Countless times I've cried.. Endless times I've thought of him.. I told myself I've gotta be strong but it all seems useless. Please please, let me be strong and survive all these. There's kids for me to look after and I just can't collapse. Am I really that weak without you?
