Life's pretty bad now. Not knowing how the future gonna be like. Everything seems so bleak and dull. Felt really hopeless this time. Gotta act as if nothing happened in front of everyone. How sarcastic can life be. So much in me, yet not able to mention. Saddening.. Anyway, brought Zen out to meet Sabbie. Had a great, long chat. Over the weekends, brought Ben out to meet Joelin and Cun too. Walked around, shopped around. At least for that few hours, I'm able to forget everything and just concentrate on loosing up.
Oh ya, Zen has got 6tooths now. Kind of lot uh. Didn't manage to take him smiling with his tooth showing but I will try to. He looks so cute when he smile and his 6little tooth appearing. Though he still can't say a word but at least he can just yak a little at times. Did I mention that he's a glutton? He can't stop eating and I really mean it when I say can't stop. He can just go on and on eating biscuits and crackers though he just finished his lunch or dinner. Especially when he saw someone eating, he will definitely scream cause' he wanted a share too. Super greedy lo! Luckily Ben always share with him. If not I guess when he grows up, they might snatch over food. Ha!
Everything's pretty same for Ben. Attending school, playing with his mates and making a mess of my room every single day. One thing for sure, he got naughtier. Knowing how to talk back, throwing tantrums and even pouting. When he felt too tired to carry on walking and I didn't want to carry him, he can just squat down with his arms crossed and mouth sulking. I really wonder who did he learn from cause' its kind of sissy when I see him doing that though he does look cute. He's getting more and more demanding, wanting these and that. Well, gotta really spend more time teaching him if not he might really being a spoilt brat?
Life recently might be bored and uneasy but at the least, everything is still going on with the help of others. We know who these people are and we know they are gonna be there be it happy or sad, rich or poor. Might be seperated from Ben and Zen for the time-being but I believe things will turn for the better and I will be able to fetch them back soon. Though some people might give me disappointing answers, even closest kins might not even be willing to help out but I guess that's what life is all about. Full of ups-and-downs. Used an application in Facebook, 'God wants you to know'. Well, it kind of motivates me at times. All the messages that God gave really have link to every one of my problems. I don't know if these are real or just pure coincidence but still, after reading it, it kinds of lifted up my spirits. Below are those messages that I recieved from the first time till today.
October 5 2009 at 2:26am:
Shirley got a message that on this day, God wants her to know... that you've been driving yourself too hard lately.
Sure, there is time to invest yourself fully into work, but there is equally important time for joy...ful resting. And for you, this time is now. What is the absolutely most wonderful little treat you can give yourself? Do it today.
October 7 2009 at 4:35am
Shirley got a message that on this day, God wants her to know... that tonight you can turn your worries to God, and have a good night's sleep.
You've been worrying too much about the future lately. So tonight, go ah...ead, put your faith in God, and just have a peaceful evening and a restful sleep.
October 7 2009 at 10:53pm
Shirley got a message that on this day, God wants her to know... that it's OK.
Just rest for a moment. It's OK. Yes, things are crazy, yes, the world is going nuts. Yet, deep underneath the stormy waves, there, in t...he core of your being, there is pure silence, pure love. And ... it's ... just ... OK.
October 9 2009 at 4:57am
Shirley got a message that on this day, God wants her to know... that every relationship rests on three legs: accepting, supporting and challenging.
That's really it, isn't it? You want your relationships to be grou...nded on accepting each other as you are. On supporting each other through the inevitable ups and downs. On challenging each other to become more, to grow, to flourish. Which one of these is the more difficult one for you, and how are you going to practice it in the next 24 hours?
October 10 2009 at 4:08am
Shirley got a message that on this day, God wants her to know... that it is time to finally forgive yourself.
You've carried the guilt, the shame for long enough. You've kept your wounds open for long enough. The ti...me has to come to let go, to heal. Keep the lessons and let the pain heal. Yes, you know what we are talking about it.
October 11 2009 at 3:38am
Shirley got a message that on this day, God wants her to know... that God has an important purpose for you, and made everything possible for you to succeed.
That's not to say it's an easy purpose, or a convenient on...e. It might very well seem hard or even impossible, but it only looks that way. The truth is that one day you will look back and see how all the pieces fit together. And how your life has been a complete and utter success.
October 12 2009 at 1:26am
Shirley got a message that on this day, God wants her to know... that the answers are within you.
You're chasing in the wrong field. What you are looking for is inside of you, not 'out there'. Take a few days off to... become quiet and look within, and you will find it.
October 13 2009 at 3:54am
Shirley got a message that on this day, God wants her to know... that it's time to STOP going through the motions of living, and START living.
Are you willing to do that now? Or are you going to wait until all life ...energy drains out of you and your loved ones who are trying to support you at this very moment? You were not born to follow rules and regulations. Living starts with dreaming. So dream, dream friend, and let dreams show you the path to your bliss.
October 14 2009 at 1:46am
Shirley got a message that on this day, God wants her to know... that it's time you remembered who you really are.
You are not your wallet, your job, your kids, your house. You are not your activities or your worrie...s or the labels other people give you. Like an actor you play these roles, and like a good actor you sometimes forget who you really are. Time to wake up now, and remember that you are a being of immense power and breathtaking beauty created in the image of God.
October 15 2009 at 1:17am
Shirley got a message that on this day, God wants her to know... that there is a miracle waiting for you this minute, - please make room for it in your thinking.
God has no need to prove anything to you, so if you d...on't believe in miracles, you are not likely to receive one. How do you believe in miracles? You believe by keeping your eyes open, - miracles often come in ways unexpected, and might leave unrecognized unless you pay attention.
October 16 2009 at 2:08pm
Shirley got a message that on this day, God wants her to know... that the great advantage of having nothing is that everything becomes a gain.
Losing everything is at the same time the scariest, as well as the most ...liberating experience you can have. When you have something, - anything, you've got to protect it from disappearing. And so worry becomes a resident in your heart. When you've got nothing, your heart overflows with gratitude for every offering you receive.
October 17 2009 at 2:44pm
Shirley got a message that on this day, God wants her to know... that every moment is an opportunity for you to be happy.
You know how sometimes it seems that life is just throwing you one curved ball after another?... Well, guess what, - you have a great way to respond! - you can use every opportunity, every single one, to be happy. Don't just take a shower - feel into and receive pleasure from the water on your skin. Don't just walk on the street - enjoy the fragrances of the trees and the flowers on your way. Don't just drive your car - sing karaoke to your favorite radio station.
October 18 2009 at 2:36am
Shirley got a message that on this day, God wants her to know... that how bad things may look right now means nothing, - it's how good they can be with God's help that counts.
In life you can absolutely count on one... thing, - everything can turn around in one day, in one minute sometimes. Don't you dare to give up, - you might be a moment away from a windfall.
I might not be a God's follower but I guess all these is enough to prove that either Facebook is good enough to know whatever I'm facing, all these are pure coincidence or God really exist. Its up to you to judge (: Comments alright!
Anyway, videos are uploaded like F-I-N-A-L-L-Y. One was Ben doing Jigsaw puzzle all on his own and the other is my cousin on stage. Its all super random and not clearly taken so just bear with it uh. I will try to upload the other pictures as soon as possible. Guess all these are enough for the long wait? TAGS PLEASE and PLEASE PLEASE click on the ADVERTS!!
