Ta Dah !~

As promised, pictures of Ben and Zen is here. I've finally got time to upload it. Gradually, they're growing up, slowly learning what's life is about. I hope whenever they fell, I'm always there to help them up. Its really tough being parents, be it Daddy or Mummy. There used to be a Chinese saying, "生比教容易" meaning its easy for you to have a kid but its hard for you to teach the kid. It needs alot of effort and patience teaching them.

When I'm young, I took everything for granted. I got so used to the life of depending people around me. My relationship with my family ain't good either. I smashed all the hopes they have on me. At that time, freedom and fun was the life I want. Till the day I got into trouble, the one whom appeared and helped me was my Mum. Being a underage Mum at that time was illegal and Candy might be facing the punishment of law. Luckily, Mum was there to help us out be it forking out money or effort. I finally realised how foolish I was at that moment.

Now after being a Mum, I can fully understand how much hurt I've brought to them at that time. I wouldn't say I regret being a young mother. If I didn't got pregnant at that time, maybe my relationship with my Mum wouldn't change for the better.

Life's just so contradicting. When I faced Mum, I will think as a kid hoping Mum will put herself in my shoes. When I faced Ben and Zen, I will think like how Mum did. If I put myself in their plight, I wouldn't be stern and they won't be afraid of me. Ben is going to be 3years old soon. Though everyone says that he's clever and is learning things at a faster pace, but which Mother wouldn't hope that their kid can learn as much things as possible. He's such a hyper-active child. If you wants him to sit down and recite A-B-C for you, I can assure you, its mission impossible. There gotta be something to attract him before he can recite it to you. He can speak alot now but he makes it a point to repel what you say. Sometimes, I can faint when talking to him. Well, down to Zen. He's still too young to see if he's a quiet or active child. But one thing, when he screams, it is really so high pitch that even Candy can't take it. He can climb very fast and he's learning how to walk now. I seldom put him in the walker (the chair with wheels) as I'm seldom in the living room. But he can actually stand up by holding the sides of my bed or his baby cot. I notice he doesn't like hard food and prefer something soft. I tried giving him Baby Bites but he will just leave it aside. When I make fruit pureen or brown rice, it will finish everything up. As to compared with Ben, they're miles away. Ben loves biscuits at that age and dislike eating soft food. I don't know how their relationship will be in the future, whether its as good as brothers or as bad as enemies. But at least for now, I know that they both enjoyed the company of each other.

Sometimes, I will sit alone, reminiscing. I wonder how long can everything last. When I just got together with Candy, we were every couple's role model. Everyone was so envious of how sweet and loving we are. Slowly, honeymoon period is over. The couple world changed into a family. The changes we made, the sacrifices we did. No one else knew except us. Still, no one can escape the temptations out there. The quarrels and misunderstandings we had is far too much to be count. Though now, we're still happily together but how long can we go on? If there could be a time limit, I hope its eternity..

Mr 老鼠 and 小老鼠s , I love you !