Went for the job interview and waited for 2hours before the doctor had time to meet us. Still pondering if I'm up to it. Another factor that's affecting me is the working hours. My off days are only in the day and for a full day shift, I gotta work from morning till night. Kids are my only worries. Anyway, Darling's Mum said she got a friend who helps to babysit. If I'm working, might be able to get her help. Still, Benfred's childcare are only available till 7.30pm.
Went Compass Point with Darling's Mum and Elder Sis yesterday. Hadn't been there for a long time. I remembered the last time I went there was because I worked there. Since then, I've never been to there. Not bad, quite a big mall with lots of sales going on. Didn't buy anything, was in a kind of rush.
Brought Benfred out today but I forgot to take a picture of him. He's super naughty, insisting on buying toys. Everytime we go out, he's bound to bring toys home. This time, he bought 3cars and a toy phone.
People whom read my tagboard should felt quite weird, cause' I seldom use such a tone to talk to people. I didn't wish to.. I do welcome people viewing my blog, know more about me and my kids and I don't feel annoyed when people asked me more about those intimate questions like, 'How you feel when you give birth to your kids' , 'Did your boyfriend get charged' or even 'How you give birth'. I guess I'm quite sensitive when people thought I'm living off my parents or I depend on them. I'm actually not. When I'm pregnant with Zenfred, I still worked and it's really tough working there. People like Passerby(: would have know cause' they actually seen me. At that time, Darling is busy working too and we totally have no time to sit down and have a talk. He's working at night while I'm in the day. At that time, I guess its the toughest period that I've gone through.
With a big stomach, carrying Benfred to the childcare. Worked in a cramp place, serving so many people with the hot and stuffy weather the whole day. It is so tiring that I've aches and cramps every night. Why is this so? Cause' I'm not using my parents' money. I earn my own keeping. I really don't understand what burden did I give my parents. Yea, I admit I didn't give my parents' any allowance every month but still, is this considered as giving them burden?
When I read the remarks on my tagboard, the ache in my heart suddenly came. I've suffered so much, sacrificed so much and yet people still thought that I'm just living off my parents. If it is really this case, I don't have to suffer so much at that time...
People always thought, "Wow, 2kids already. Next time when they grow up you will have a good life." Yet, they always overseen what I've suffered and sacrificed in order to have what I have now. People always see the appearance like how glory and happy are you but the hardship is always in the inner side where no one else know except families. That is why I treasure my families..
I hope Passerby4 will think back on his/her remarks and from the bottom of his/her heart respect us as young mums. Thanks!
P/S - I hope Darling will be discharge tomorrow! I simply miss you!
♥ MrsLaoshu signing off
