Hadn't slept a wink yet. Still, I'm as awake as ever.
I love watching dramas and movies. They create a sensational yet emotional me. I can't stop thinking about the ending, the characters and stories. People always describe me as someone emotional. That's really something I gotta admit. I tends to put myself in that character's shoes or even imagine if I were him/her. Guess that's the reason why I always tear while watching.
I'm someone pursuing perfection and happy endings. Life is full of irony, without perfection. Yet, who doesn't wants a perfect partner, a perfect love, a perfect kinship or even friendship? Everyone yearns for perfection, isn't it? Be it in studies, career..
I used to think..
Why can't things be perfect? Cause' people aren't perfect.
Why can't people be perfect? Cause' this world isn't fair.
Why is this world unfair? Why do riches get richer while the poor get poorer?
Guess the main point is, there isn't any perfect answers to all the questions...
The person whom understands you best should be yourself. I'm don't understand myself at all. I don't know what I'm really pursuing. I'm so contradicting, fickle-minded and irony. Why am I pursuing perfection in the first place?
Can people really don't mind others' opinion/views?
Can a person really do whatever he/she wants without minding how others look at him/her?
Even if there's people judging you, mocking you, will you be able to ignore them and lead your life happily?
Maybe some people might be able to, but I guess I can't. I take remarks very seriously. Though being a young mother will tend to be judged and criticised, I don't mind. Be it for my kids or family. But when it comes to other areas, I can't.
I ain't someone perfect, yet demanding perfect.
Is there anything that's perfect in me?
♥ MrsLaoshu signing off
