Few more hours to go before Darling reports to the Civil Defence Camp. I've been acting bravely in front of everyone. Believing I could do all these by my own. Yea, even I thought I could too.
As the time passes, meaning departure is closer then I realised I'm lying to myself. We seldom leave each other you see. Almost lived and spent all our nights together for 3years. Suddenly, the one sleeping next to you every single night isn't there anymore..
Just the thoughts made my heart sunk. Might be exaggerating to some but.. Since young, I couldn't leave people whom I get used to. Even staying at relative's house with all the familiar faces around me, I would tear and not sleep a wink.
I know it sound stupid. The useless me.. Disappointing everyone's hopes in me. Indeed I've grown, but definitely not in this. All asleep leaving only me here staring at the screen typing.
The protected me isn't being protected anymore. The little girl being pampered by family since young has to fend for herself now. Uh huh, that's how I felt.
♥ MrsLaoshu signing off
