The images of you and her... Those messages, those scenes of hugs and kisses, checking into the hotel, bathing together, making love and checking out from the hotel... All the scenes are flashing across my mind one by one, again and again.
You may claim that its unreal, its just a dream or maybe my imagination. But why does it seems so real?

In the dream, my heart seems to be dead. I'm feeling hurt deep inside but I ain't crying. I don't seem to hate you anymore. People kept asking me to scold you, beat you but my hands just wouldn't do it.

People around us are all looking at you with those stares. I ought to feel happy when they helped me but instead I felt sad for you.
In my dream, you didn't really explain clearly if you did have any feelings for her. But I guess you did. If you don't love her, why waste money going to the hotel?
I may be looking too much into it. But it really scare the hell outta me. I didn't even wish to wake up. I wanted to carry on my dreams and see what's really happening.

Its not the first time I'm having this kind of dream. It happened a few times already. What does it prove?

I'm really afraid to lose you or are those dreams telling me something?
Come on, someone.. Give me an answer please!
However, if I'm really afraid to lose you, why did my heart seems to be dead in the dreams?

If its real, I guess you really let me down utterly..After all that I've done for you, your family and our kids, you are hurting me fucking deeply.

I know what are you thinking. You must be grumbling and cursing me for making a fuss over a dream. But I couldn't help it. Just like the woman who tell me she can't help but falling in love deeply for you.

Well, if its just my imagination, my dream or I'm simply thinking too much, forget about it then.. I really need your care and concern to lighten up my spirits. Your coax, your hugs and your kisses can just let me forget everything and be with you.

And that's the reason why in the first place I'm willing to put down all that I have to be with you. Let go of all my ego and pride just to be suffering.
Still.. You yourself knows the answer best.

♥MrsLaoshu signing off