Went to help mum out the whole yesterday. Met up with old schoolmate and realised I've forgotten almost all my schoolmates. Even I saw them on the streets, I may not be able to recognise them too.

Caught up alot, getting what I missed out. Schoolmates and friends seems to be far. The talk, laughter is gone and what's that left is only memories and hi-bye. Nevermind, good friends are there no matter what. 1 best friend can't be compared to 5normal hi-bye friends. Isn't it?

Finding myself so sick and tired of everything. A life like that isn't what I'm asking for. Why are life so contradicting? I know its all my own fault. All the advice and help that others gave me in the past are falling on deaf ears. Now the regrets are serving me right.

I can't live with a family like that. Going mad thinking of all these. There's no one I could tell my problems to. Even if I do, what can they do to help. I want them to have their punishments but there are other factors that I need to consider. Maybe letting go of our relationship may help, but is that fair to Darling? I don't want to make the issue big either, but who will think for us if I don't. Money won't drop from heaven. People gotta work to earn their own keeping. Here we are scrimping and saving and yet on the other hands people kept stealing our hard earned money. Fair towards us?

I'm trying damn hard to control my temper so that I won't curse nor spam my vulgarities here. If I could turn the time back, I guess I won't be here blogging about those bastards. I do want to confront them and make them come back to their senses. But how, if I really do, things would be really bad. Should I really just keep quiet and let them continue making my life sucks then?

I'm losing my control. They better pay for their wrongs if not I won't let them go. Anyway, shall update some other day. Time for pictures!

Benfred and Rachel









Hmm. What you think about the cap Benfred is wearing? Yes, you - the one reading. There's alot of different colors, as in plain one color instead of so colorful like Benfred's. Wanna buy one for your siblings, relatives or friends' kids? Let me know or enquire at http://www.dolluphse.blogspot.com/.

Anyway, the last picture is taken by Benfred while I'm on phone. He do have a gift of being photographer huh?

♥MrsLaoshu signing off

♥ MrsLaoshu signing off; 2:01 AM