I really cannot imagine myself doing this. With 3kids at my house and me coping alone. Hazel called me in the morning. She had some problems again. I already gave her the solution but tonight there's no one to look after her daughter.
She brought her daughter over at 9pm and she's bringing her back only at tomorrow 10am. Darling and the rest asked if I could cope. I knew if all were to cry at the same time I definitely couldn't. But still, I agreed. Hopefully she will just keep her promise and fetch her daughter on time.
People asked why I was that willing to help her no matter what problems she's facing. I had no idea either. In the past, I didn't like her alot. Though now, we aren't really close too but Im just willing to accompany her, help her.
When she had no place to stay over, Im willing to let her come. I was helping her with the laundry when I didn't even do my own laundry. Making Milo for her when it was normally Darling who made it for me. Whatever I bought for Zenfred, I will definitely buy one for Joylynn.
Maybe at times we are similar in the situation we are in. The problems we had and the guy we are facing are almost the same. Though she may had some of her own problems and so am I but in most of the case, its alike.
I felt really lucky that I had my family to depend on. At times when we were really tight and stress, my family are there for me. They did their best trying to help Darling being a father without any charges and me being a mother with everything a baby need. Though Darling's family aren't really concerned about us, not helping us but with my own family's help, we are able to do it. Its really fortunate to have people lending you a helping hand when you're down and out. Guess this is what that makes me help her.
Thinking back, here I am helping people to look after their kids. But when I need people to look after my kids, who are there to help me? In the past, there's still mummy. Yet now, she's busy with her own things. Last Saturday, I really wanted to go out but I ended up rejecting their invitation. Im only left with myself to look after the kids. No one else could help, no one else will help. Sighs..
You know who you are, yes you.
I may be harsh towards you.
Please think for the sake of yourself.
Open up your heart and accept what's coming.
There won't be any future holding on isn't it?
♥MrsLaoshu signing off
